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Writing More Like Beyoncé

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Writing More Like Beyoncé
by EJ KOH

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Beyoncé slaps one thigh and grooves to the ‘End of Time’ in her Revel performance. Her back dancers wear rainbow-colored spandex and different facials: angry, ecstatic, cool. Then Beyoncé misses a count, headbangs a little too long, and falls 1.3 seconds slower than her dancers – she’s off. But she doesn’t look messy; she looks real. From then on, I believe her and the words she sings.

Around my thirtieth draft, I started to wonder if my novel Red was real anymore. There’s an immediacy to Beyoncé’s shows. They feel recently made because they are. And I imagine the lightning process gives her a thrill. Even with all the sound and lights, I catch a glimpse of her when she stumbles – of who she is in the practice room.

One time, I met an author at a writer’s conference. He had tabbed the pages of his novel. When I asked why, he said, “I memorized all the mistakes in my book.” My first thought: Why would he carry his book around like a lesson? He turned his novel into background music and put his typos center stage. I wanted to tell him: Stumbling can be amazing.

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But while writing Red, I felt like he did. I believed that I prepared my novel for battle against the critics. I was chopping and reconfiguring passages, losing sight of what I was writing. I was forgetting the sublime and ecstatic moments of falling 1.3 seconds short. So I did something drastic: I stopped editing when I felt like it. It was risky but I couldn’t stand clinically dissecting my work with editors. I wasn’t interested in ready-for-critics, I was interested in ready-for-readers. Now, I’ll be headbanging like Beyoncé has never seen.

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EJ KOH is a poet and an author. Her work has been published in TriQuarterly, Southeast Review, The Journal, La Petite Zine, Susquehanna Review, Gulf Stream, and elsewhere. She is a poetry finalist of the Ina Coolbrith Memorial Prize and is currently completing her Masters of Fine Arts at Columbia University. She blogs at thisisEJKoh.comRed is her first novel.

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